徜徉在天竺大地（海外实习日志）

Long time spent abroad, you will find that almost every one you meet Chinese people, is a Xianglinsao. They chatter back and forth to keep the daytime you ask yourself asking: want to return later? Later want to return? Later want to return? Back to back or not, this is really a multi-count also Suanbu Qing equation problem. Once, a degree abroad, leaving school to find a job, get married and have children buy a house, the choice is a matter of course no doubt. But suddenly one day, “the market economy spring breeze blowing through the land of the motherland”, has been in foreign laboratories, companies cubicle Li Momo hard work of the Chinese people suddenly looked up and found the Pacific Ocean, the land of the motherland has one thousand tree 10000 Pear Tree open. Then, “bad news” follow. Students began to hear John Smith used to live next door to his already large companies is the manager of a hard money lenders certain; there was less to the individual John Doe, I heard that he has changed half a dozen of Xiaomi; Then, in a return journey, he found himself in a foreign country to eat, wear, play, music, friends can only watch the domestic items back up; also found himself in a small data printing errors frequently to their manager apology, while bowing, his old classmate, far less than that before the king, he, KTV private room at the moment is sitting in the name of mobile phones, said, “that real estate project loans, we can re-negotiation negotiation.” He also inevitably aware, his entire spiritual life – if he was young, when the “angry youth” breath of the sun has not been thoroughly drying of foreign words – is the nest in a Chinese forum, tomorrow will be issued two steadicam moderators out as garbage complaints only, while at the same time, certain of his friends on the domestic media has become the “experts”, in those exciting on the “transformation” frequently speak in the debate. Yes, he did, or eventually, to live on the beautiful house. After so many years to study hard, scared to look for work, “some dream” a reality. Bought a big house, a lawn outside, the lawn outside the fence, the fence, there are flowers. But, after all, one day, water the flowers in his yard, when suddenly dismayed to realize that such a life, but that he had been ridiculed by the farmers ideal “face loess back into the air, the wife and kids white picket fence,” the overseas microdermabrasion machines version of it. So, what should he do in the end? Life in the end what else than “facing loess back into the air, the wife and kids white picket fence” greater and more beautiful it is more sexy? A bigger house? He is now big enough to house has haunted the. Fuqifeipian more authentic? To tell the truth, so many years abroad, he has less of spicy cold. More salaries? That is, of course, but his next day in fact a wage far. After all, his heart faint as pain, and that all “material life” have nothing to do, he would not be tolerated, is the “end of history”, is the kind of life “at the end of flu”, is surging forward once time suddenly slow down, stop, nowhere to go, in his home that beautiful yard, gradually turned into a quiet pool of stagnant water. The lawn outside the window, then the green, green was so persistent, so hard, so due diligence, then a few decades, just like death. And domestic life? A lot of gap between rich and metal detector poor, children have endless work, farmers have to run endless petitions, laid-off workers in the non-stop, and even said to have walked on the road has been give catch into the killing, but, for the ambitious youth, China, Maelstrom, how much is a “possibility” of minerals: There are so many things can be angry, young, fighting, owned green can make money there are so many, so young Man can express more emotion – history is far from reached its end, the future still sitting inside the red scarf to stimulate his imagination, he can then go all out to run it, and go all the feel from “meaning” windy blowing. If so, why not return some sort? Unspeakable pain, a back of. At this time, he began softly. He began to doubt his yearning for all domestic, and perhaps only “from the resulting beauty.” He began to worry if you leaned observation, you will see the pockmarks and the motherland face acne. “After all, business in China, is to rely on relationships, I have not anything to do, go back and white back.” He said. “Here, no matter how bad, is basically a place to eat on merit and ability, at least fair at all, not by a lot of gas for no reason.” He said. Then he thought of the domestic wherever people are not people lined up to spit surrounded environmental pollution is serious, he felt a headache. They think of domestic workers who ragged 12 hours a day’s work may not get the wages to the end even he was despise. Also think that one is fake fake milk powder alcohol tankless water heaters poisoning of people, it is also inevitably feel stomach pains. He grew more and more, grew more and more pain, grew more and more afraid, and finally arrived at the inevitable, “Civilization,” “democracy” and “rule of law” and other high radiant. So he reached an impasse. Moment he thought of the king, to stimulate domestic Zhangsanlisi life, while they thought of the foreign king, secure seating of the fate of John Doe. Domestic life, he can not see the ceiling, so full of hope, but do not see the lower limit, which is particularly dangerous; foreign life, he can see the lower limit, and thus feel safe, but also see ceiling, it is particularly tedious. Domestic life such as buying stocks may rise rapidly, it may fall fast; while living abroad, such as time deposits, earn no where to go, but also not much loss. Ah, overseas sons, one highly educated, high income, high-quality three-high “Skeleton” chatter all day long so forced himself into the Xianglinsao. Once home, I and a few friends for dinner, one said, “you return to it, China and more complex” complex, ah, that is the word, pertinent and accurate. For a taste of the soul, the “complex” is how a basic need under the sun suburbs in Europe, the United States was so pure, so calm, used to stir up trouble for the people who, in the final analysis is a famine. The “complex” yearning, I secretly hope he can over a lifetime channeling rushed about here, a vagrant life. This desire, I feel, how greedy he is a man. Sake of stability, but also eager to stimulate, not back home, not just a “business” problem, or even just a “cultural” issues, if this greed is a “Fan Jian”, I insisted that it passed to the “tragedy of Nora,” the philosophical proposition up. In the history of the road, people overcoming all obstacles, forge ahead, but after reaching the end of history, ah, standing on the beautiful scenery in Europe in May, I panic but sad to think that people on that rocky road, however, stirring people’s hearts , also made ​​up the “Homesick.”